There's enough blame to go around... Him, the groupies that are ALWAYS hanging around - ready to do ANYTHING he could imagine, the constant travelling, the accessibility to anything and anybody and last but not at all least the MONEY. Yeah, the money... Something I always wanted but didn't know would bring so much pain.
As I muddled through the hurt and pain I began to find myself. That sounds profound to some because one probably asks "How can you loose yourself when you're always with yourself?" Hmmmm, let me tell you it's quite easy to get caught up trying to be everything for someone that you love soooo much and completely forget your own needs and wants. Now on the other hand I wanted what he wanted and it made me happy doing things to make it work and him happy. But as time passed I found myself being a "clone" of him. Meaning turning some of my dreams and wants into what he wanted for me. Bad move!
See, I was practically a teenager when we met and he was 8 years older than me. So everything he said was golden! I hung onto EVERY word. He was fine, every woman wanted him, he was successful, gave me money anytime I wanted, we travelled anywhere I wanted to go and he was very respected and liked by his friends. Treated me and made me feel like a QUEEN! A true package!!!
But all good things must come to an end...
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